diary 2026

14/08/2026

I can't believe it has been more than a year I found out about Neocities and created this website. I have barely updated it, I have barely found other sites to follow, I have barely talked to other people here. I guess my other hyperfixations took over and I did not have enough time to spend here.

I have given this website the stupid name of "change my mind" and the looks of this motherforking website because I could not decide which direction to go. Pixel art? Pencil drawing? Minimal? Futuristic? Cozy? Dark? Space? Dungeon? Not being able to choose has been my leitmotif my whole life, and this website is just one more example of the same soup.

It's been weird being on this corner of the Internet. After all, is is just one more place full of people, with unwritten rules, social cues to understand, people's wants and needs. Just like a room in the physical world. And if you can feel out of place in the physical world, you can feel out of place here. Just like in the physical world, everybody looks like they know what they're doing, and I constantly have to look stuff up to avoid feeling left out. Just like a physical place, this place has a culture, and everything feels so extraneous. Just like in the physical world, I stand confused and scared in a corner while everyone around me is meeting new people, making new friends and sometimes more. And just like how it happens in the physical world, there is probabily no way of explaining what I mean to someone who doesn't already know it.

I would like to write many more things, but it seems enough for a first entry. These thoughts weren't easy to write, but I want them to be out there. I hope the idea of writing these entries will become a habit. I can't guarantee anything though.